Frank Robinson: 'Senior Moments, 11'

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(Written from a senior community)

 

By Frank Robinson

  

This is the place

where old people go,

to visit their parents.

xxx

Work or retirement –

a hard choice

between wasting time doing something

or wasting time doing nothing.  

xxx

I wasn’t old

until I went to an old people’s home;

old age is catching.

xxx


Is this a hospital or a home?

A little bit of both.

xxx 

Everybody is nobody here,

no matter what you were.

You make yourself

every day.

xxx


In line at our café –

“I’m in a hurry;

My husband is dying.’’

xxx

If this is what life is like when I’m lucky,

God help me when I’m not.

xxx

 

There are so many exotic diseases these days,

cancer and heart attack

seem kind of safe.

xxx 

Christmas here:

a hundred flowers

waiting at the front desk.

xxx

What a perfect marriage!

We take turns being sick.

xxx

This is the world of second chances,

of last chances,

a new beginning at the end.

xxx

Those days when I don’t want to live

and don’t want to die,

it takes a lot

to get out of bed.

xxx

To be old is to worry,

especially when there’s nothing

to worry about.

xxx

From the first,

I knew we owed the gods a death,

but I didn’t know

we owed them two,

yours and mine.

xxx


If someone’s really old,

you hate to waste their time

saying hello.

xxx

We think about the past every day,

that abandoned building

we  forgot to tear down.

xxx

These days,

I talk to myself even more,

now that people can’t hear me.

(Did they listen before?)

xxx

This is the test:

Can you be patient and kind

to people who are dying?

xxx

Old age –

when suddenly

everything around you

seems fragile.

xxx 

When someone tells you

her husband is doing well,

you know he isn’t

xxx

We use ski poles in every season,

even in summer –

in preparation, I suppose, for winter.

xxx

This is a strange world,

so comfortable and safe,

and yet so close to pain and death.

 

xxx 

This place is such a good subject for poetry,

let’s hope nobody comes up with a miracle cure.

xxx

I forget things I shouldn’t forget

and remember things I shouldn’t remember.

I think too much.

xxx

Watch out for those wheelchairs!

They’re just showing off,

or getting back at us

for walking.

  

Frank Robinson, an art historian and the former director of the art museums at Cornell University and the Rhode Island School of Design, is a poet and essayist living in Ithaca, N.Y.